Coming back to Life

Tough decisions need to be taken. It will hurt some, upset some. I cannot let conservative thoughts seep through my blood. It has to stop!! Period.

Where do I get the energy then? How? What can challenge me? What can piss me off? Will I be too hard on people who I respect the most? I don't want that. 

Every fucking problem has a fucking solution! That's how it is. I know that. Proper reasoning is enough. Cut out all the other bullshit and set straight. Examine the line of sight. 

Prove it and show how people can be wrong. After all, we have to fight for our dreams right? Fuck yes. 

Every act has a phase. We cannot skip that. 

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"No time for that". A phrase we hear a lot. A phrase we utter a lot. I am no better. I utter it at least once a day. 

So what do we do about that? I feel sick uttering those words. To be stereotyped is a sin! The most simple causes of every day life are built out of small imaginations. Small and tiny efforts go a long way. Simple efforts. 

I will try not to say that again. If I ever do, its time for "Correction". Undo and start over again.

Skipping rope is pure bliss. I love it. Burns a lot of calories and keeps your heart pounding. Workouts going good. 4-5 days a week is more than enough. 

I am really

Pissed off.  Never been this mad. Educated bastards having no sense of the world. Dogs r better.  How foolish of them to believe in absurd things! We r young to be dragged into it.  Second time am facing it. I really pity them. U r unlucky.  I knw tht for sure. I am gonna thump u down if I ever see your sad shit face.
I Feel sorry for u. Am helpless.. but yes good things are in store for u.  U will see. Patience will always pay off.  Cheers.

Someone or Something

You came running to me

Why this rush lady?

A friend of mine is lost in Upanishads. And I ask him what is the truth? "That is for you to figure out". 

These plain rocks which take in the sea. Of them, I sit on one and take the lashing. It felt really good. Now I am back to the city.

I am looking deep down. I slide in a rope to bring out the creative me. And I fear it will be the same 20 years down. The rope still left in the dark and I find myself with no energy to hold it. 

"I woke to the sound of drums

The music played, the morning sun streamed in

I turned and I looked at you

And all but the bitter residue slipped away...slipped away" - A Great Day for Freedom

Day 1 - Sunrise running

1.6 KM - this is after a gap of about 3 years! I have to credit myself :P

Was a bit rough but the good thing is I was not left gasping for breath! I stilllllll have it. Good sign. I just have to be patient and see how long this goes. 10K is the initial target. Have to gun this by Feb end. 

But yes, Nicotine is still hanging around. I feel like a gutless, shameless asshole for having taken to it again after all the inner preaching :P. It doesn't work. "Keep quitting and you will quit". Lets see

Work is drab, drab, drab. My mind flutters, flutters, flutters. And I say, quit quit quit. And I say, Run Run Run.

So many emotions quarrel in a congested mind. All that is left is something called "Will". Such a shit it is. 

God! I feel hungry. One thing I fear is the concept of Cafes in Hyderabad which is soon fading out to history. Its all about kfc or mcD or many such stupid places. I need my regular chai and a couple of tie biscuits every now and then. 

Old is always Gold. 

Run and Cycle 2012

It is here finally. World coming to an end shit has already started. Well I don't care. Anyways, I am now quite determined to kick the butt :-) I am definitely going to miss it, but I guess its for the best that I leave that habit behind. Time to run and cycle. 

Run and Cycle.

Run and Cycle fucker.

Get high running and cycling. Get tooo high. I have done it before. Will do it again. I need that. I need that air and I need that energy again. To regain what is lost. To leave behind the drama and all the nonsensical stuff inside my head. Clean it out. Freshen up. Look forward and actually do it. 

A great book by my side. 'Its not about the bike' by Lance Armstrong. He says, "When you cycle for 2500+ miles over a period of 20 days. When you peddle up a mountain that rises at 20degrees for every 10 feet. You lose your conscience. White snow turns black. As my friend said - I still see the sky even after my house is burned down"

Yeah. That is correct. To just make this small wish of mine happen is the topmost priority. To just run and cycle every now and then. Cheers!!